The last two weeks have been tremendously challenging for me and my family....I found myself in that old familiar place of being smashed down to my inner core with circumstances out of my control after recently being placed on a Bridging Visa E whilst awaiting Ministerial Intervention - An immigration matter which has had a domino effect on all our lives for nearly 7 years....This last week, more than once I didn't think I'd make it through being blocked at every turn....
I've felt defeated, unheard and powerless....I've screamed up to the skies in total desperation....I've been riddled with nightmares, insomnia and no energy....and at one point I thought that my body was beginning to shut down unable to carry this continual stress....Encased in my own anger and pain, I've lashed out and hurt the people who love me and who have been there for me....Sorry....
I realised then....That when we are put in situations that seem impossible to endure....Where you are forced to go so deep within to survive....It is in that Darkness and chronic exhaustion, where you fight for every breath, that you grow....I see it as the Universe stepping in to teach you to let go....Maybe even to put you on a different path....
Whatever happens now, happens....It's not for me to control....I just have to believe that wherever I'm led with Australia's final decision, is where I'm meant to be....Everything happens for a reason....No distance will ever break the bond I have with my beautiful children because love has no boundaries xxx
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