She was 4 years old...In her childlike mind she wished upon all the stars in the Universe...And through unthinkable challenges she still believed...She hoped that somebody would love her right...That they would love her for all that SHE was...Even with her insecurities and flaws...She wished that just maybe...She was enough...She believed in the impossible...Against all odds...
Then she grew up...And all she knew was disappointment, betrayal, injustice and heartache...Still she held on because somewhere deep inside of her she felt something unseen and unexplained - Maybe she just knew of the truths written in the Akashic Records...But who would care?...Who would understand? Who would ever love her scars? Who would put up with her complexities?
Her outspoken Truth made others feel uncomfortable...She crossed boundaries, having no filter...She struggled to accept all the jaded facets of who she was...And she didn't know how to tame the wild passionate parts of her...
So she ran...She avoided...She fought...She fell...And then she started all over again...Time and time again...Too many times...Until she had nothing left to give...
At what point should she give up? At what point should she acknowledge that maybe her dreams, happiness and justice do not lie in this lifetime?
She is NOT made of steel you know!
She does NOT want to fight battles all alone her whole life!
She DOES need somebody to care, whatever you may all think...
Should she hold on for that one moment in time?
Or should she just let go?
Well...Right now she's holding on by a thread of destiny unravelling faster than what she can think!
Every night she cries herself to sleep praying to the Gods that tomorrow a miracle will happen...That somehow respite will come...
Although she's all grown up now...She's still just that little girl trying to find her place in this fu@@ed up world...She wants to matter to somebody...But she's resigned to believing in any Prince Charming or justice or happy ending...It's just a stupid fairy-tale...It doesn't really exist...Not in her world...There's nothing left to believe in...
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